The Seeds of Doubt
I never thought that I would be doing this. A spontaneous decision to write a short story began a journey that I am barely scratching the surface of. Sometimes when I think about it, the whole idea seems kind of crazy. I mean, who sees themselves writing in a style that isn’t widely accepted, for an audience that doesn’t even know who they are? I certainly didn’t.
But that didn’t stop me. Even now, as I write this after making changes to products on my website, I get the weird feeling that maybe it wasn’t the right call. I know that thought is hogwash, but it doesn’t change the fact that it is still there. Waiting. Lurking. The feeling will rise up when things get difficult. Maybe when sales don’t reach the number I am expecting. Maybe while reading a review saying my book is trash and I’m a joke. Regardless of the context, it looms overhead making me question what I’m even doing here. Should I just throw in the towel, act as if this was all a learning experience, and go back to grinding at a normal job?
No.
This is the feeling that brings people back to their old reality. The one they are used to. The one that is safe. The one where difficulties are temporary roadblocks and each one doesn’t threaten the livelihood of you or anyone around you. I’ve known too many people that had a great idea, yet they backed out the second it got too difficult, or some other reason that was completely valid to them.
No worries. That’s fine. I never held it against them. But I will be different. I will tell the story that I have begun. It will take years, but I will get there. I have no intention of stopping what I am doing.
For some, a public declaration is meaningless. It can be retracted, retconned, or dismissed with a handwave. I am not one of them. My series, How I Fully Caked Up a Baker’s Dozen of Cute Girls, will be completed. There is no better way for me to push forward through the worry than to cast away the seeds of doubt, and scatter them like dust in the wind.
Volume 2 is entering the editing phase and will be sent off to printers right after, and it dials everything up to 11!
Thank you for joining me on this adventure. Let’s brave the chaos together.
-Rifsy